“We want to hear own your stories of hope, healing, and resilience in the face of loss…
Your experience can help others who may be going through a similar journey.
Thanking Andrew Zimmern for sharing his story here on The Houston Legacy Website.
It happens every year but this one is special. It is my 31st sobriety anniversary. Doing the math I’ve been sober more than half my life. 31 years ago I was a user of people and taker of things. I was a miserable and angry man who didn’t want to live.
I was homeless and tried to end my life in an old broken down hotel in New York called the San Pedro. One morning there I came to and Miraculously called my friend Clarke and utter the words I have never spoken before please help me. My life is never been the same since. If you’re struggling with drugs or alcohol if you feel like the circumstances of your life are overwhelming, If the way you are living is not what you want please call somebody right now and ask for help. There truly is a way out and up. And to all of my sober brothers and sisters around the world Keep passing it on. The great factor is that to keep our new way of life we must dedicate ourselves to helping others. It’s a true thing I know. I cannot think my sponsor in the meadow sponsor enough. Without them I’m lost. Sharing this journey with you is the greatest blessing of my life I am so grateful.
Chef, Writer, Traveler, TV Host @chefaz
Hi, thank you for creating this website site for your son and for people like me, and many others I’m sure.
first of all I want to extend my heartfelt condolences to you and your family.
I don’t have a lot of words of hope encouragement or advice but here is my story.
I am originally from Germany, my father moved our family to Canada in 2010 for a job which required him to relocate. I was 15, had to leave my friends and the only familiar existence I had ever known, moving was hard, but of course I had no choice. When my parents registered me into school I found adapting difficult and breaking into new circles which had already been long established almost impossible.
Kids were not willing to accept the new girl… I was different, I was shunned and ignored, I spent summers alone crying in my room, and dreaded every day school, I was never invited to parties. I found ways to eat my lunch alone behind the school and pretend everything was ok. It was not I was dying inside.
The next few years until graduation, did not improve, I don’t feel I ever fit in and my already depression grew worse. My parents had high demands on me to follow in my fathers foot steps in employment and labour law. (He works for Deloittes,) yet it was the furthest things from my mind. I found love after high school at university and finally felt a sense of belonging and peace, still undecided on my career path, it was 1 year and 4 months after I met my boyfriend he died in a tragic car accident. Again my depression worsened as I was driving!!! to make a very long story short – I decided I could not take the ongoing pain of a life I was brutally unhappy and feeling I killed the only person who understood me.
In 2020 I tried to kill myself, I decided pills and dying in my sleep would be the answer, but that did not work, I was found by my landlord who was coming to fix the sink in the kitchen, when she couldn’t get in she used a master key, found me and I was rushed to the hospital and went to an induced coma, when I awoke my parents by my side, I remember the look the pain the tears in my mothers eyes and something right then and there changed me. I realized the thought of her pain losing me (an only child) would destroy her. Despite still feeling like life was not worth living I took the advice of my parents and some family members and the minister of our church and got the help I needed. After staying in a psychiatric after trying to end my life, I got a lot of counselling and on medication to help with my depression.
I watched your sons funeral on live and was absolutely devastated for you and your family. I now follow your Houston Stevenson legacy page and have seen first hand what losing a child this way does to a family, especially his mother. Your posts have been honest raw and real. While I still struggle with depression and anxiety, I want to thank you for this page as you have made an impact on me and many others. I will never truly understand the pain of losing a child, but thank you and your family opening up to the world! You are helping me and I want you to know once life has been positively impacted because of your ability to be vulnerable and share what losing a child looks like.
Thank you for sharing your sons story… My brother took his own life 5 years ago and I am still trying to pick up the pieces of my ever so shattered heart.. We were 16 months apart he was my best friend growing up..
He had a heart of gold and was always my cheerleader as I was his he lost his battle to PTSD after serving his country for almost 30 years.. He was a Cobra helicopter pilot for the US Army served in Desert Storm and in Afghanistan for 10 years off and on.. 22 Veterans take their lives daily!! It’s astonishing how many people accidentally kill themselves or in my brothers case purposely take their own life.. Suicide has such a negative sound no one wants to talk about it.. It’s embarrassing or God is against it you won’t go to heaven on and on… Very few look at the person and say their pain must of been so great…
Please keep sharing and bringing light to this epidemic in our country..
Ronnie, thank you for sharing the deepest parts of your painful journey.
I am so in awe of your courage and strength. Your son Houston had a wonderful life and family and all that changed in a single moment. I am deeply sorry for the pain you are forever going to live with.
My 27 year old son, has a life changing illness. This illness is causing him to fall into a very deep, dark depression. He has struggled with alcohol as well. He is hanging on. But he often feels hopeless.
I plan to share this amazing site with him. I am terrified he will continue to spiral down. But I have hope because of your kindness and openness to share your reality with us.
Thank you. I know you WILL save lives.
Love and prayers always to you and your family
Kevin Hines is one of 25 survivors who jumped off the Golden Gate Bridge.
Firstly to Ronnie, her beautiful family and loved ones who’ve helped piece this website together in honour of Houston’s legacy, I want to say thank you from the bottom of my heart.
Sharing something so painful and personal is never easy, I hope the awareness you’re creating and sharing with the world can at least bring you some comfort.
Even through such heartbreak you’re still so selfless, considerate and caring of others.
I so admire that!
You’ve helped me massively and made me realise just how short life is…
For the past couple of years I’ve been struggling with depression, mental health problems and suicide attempts…
It all started after I had to close my landscaping/groundworks business down due to a back injury, which left me bed bound for some time, leaving me alone in my four walls with my thoughts… not good.
I was so lost, I’ve worked from the age of 15 and to be told at the age of 26 (at the time) that I needed to stop everything because I didn’t realise how bad my injuries were was a big thing for me to adjust to! I started drinking, stopped eating, stopped seeing family and friends and got so hooked on the pain medication I just thought is this it? This is my life now?
I wasn’t given a time frame of when the operations would be done so that I could get back to what I loved.
I kept myself locked away from the world, just sleeping and being stuck in the same 4 walls to the point where when I started to get out and about again I’d developed such anxiety, it was all so crippling.
To this day I’m still in pain, and then 3 overdoses later, I now have further health complications which I’m on medication for until I’m back to good health.
I just didn’t want to live that way, having to depend on people to help me do the daily tasks that I was once so capable of, it felt so degrading, embarrassing and exhausting even, having to ask for help was something I wasn’t used to.
Everything got to me and then the financial stresses hit me, they still affect me now, and back then it just felt like the universe was trying to see how far I’d bend before I broke.
The most recent time was just before Houston had passed, I’d lost and buried my great nan, it absolutely destroyed me and quite literally pushed me over the edge. But luckily I survived, and seeing just how much I’d hurt my people by doing what I did gave me the wake up call I needed.
Soon came the devastating news that Houston had left this world, and my heart broke for you all, I can’t imagine the pain you’re all feeling.
But what I can tell you is the LOVE that Houston had for his family is evident, and through this he’s given you the strength and courage to share his story and help so many others like myself to reach out, speak up and get out of that dark place… of course I still have my bad days as we all do, but in those times I’ll often look for inspiration, whether that be through quotes, music, a film, checking up on Houston’s legacy page, speaking to Ronnie, family and friends.. it all helps!
You’re truly amazing, it’s just what Houston would’ve wanted, and it’s what your family are all about.
Ronnie he was an absolute credit to you, as are all of your children.
You have a wonderful family. I’m so proud of you all, and for the inspiration and strength you’ve given me to soldier on I will be forever thankful for.
Please don’t be afraid to reach out to someone, and check on your people, time with our loved ones is so precious.
And remember that YOU matter, YOU have a purpose!
We’ve got this!
All my love,
I lost my brother two years ago to a drug overdose.
He was very depressed and always said he wished he was dead.
They found him passed out of the floor and could not bring him back. He was on life support for a few days but brain dead.
My situation is a little different as my brother was an addict, but the pain and loss is the same.
Depression and addiction is a horrible combination.
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